Sunday afternoons.. Time for a little introspection.. Get up late, eat ur heartful and await the lazy afternoon.. Make plans for the evening, and **** things get screwed up..****. Gets me into one of those moods.. One of those moods that I wish that I was the only person around.. One of those moods where I feel It wasnt worth being there at all.. One of those times when the Vikkki facade moves over a little and the Vikram fellow peeps out.. One of those times that I find the most hard to handle..
S5's "Kangalai Nambaadhey.. Adhu Unmai Solaadhey" plays in the background.. Hurts me even more.. How true that is.. Sometimes makes u feel if it is all worth it? Is this life worth what we are doing.. Makes me feel that I keep doing something pointless.. Wasting my time.. Wasting my life.. Wasting my life by not doing things that I really love doing.. Wasting my life by not being with the people I really love being with.. Not being with family.. Not being with friends.. hurts more.. It was this life that made me create the Vikkki facade.. The facade that people take for granted to be ME. The facade that is soooo untrue about me.. The facade that I have taken for granted too.. The facade that I know deep inside to be just the mask that I have had to wear for this **** society.. To help me smile at all the bull**** thats happening around me.. The crap that I can really do nothing about... It is at these times when Vikram comes out that I realize the real me.. The Me that I hope no one ever gets to see..
I hate Vikkki.. I love Vikram.
Vikram.
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Sunday, May 08, 2005 
uh oh! mebbe thatz just an indication that u r gonna have a gr8 start of the week rather!! LOL... i know that was such a cliched pep up note.... but sleep thro' it man! Call up people. Have quality conversations. Catch up with old friends. E-mail them. Or call up new people for the heck of it ;-) my number is on orkut.
Have a gr8 week ahead!